Superficial mom

The night before last I dreamt our baby came out super large, over developed (i.e. with a mane of long wet red hair and could talk already) and ugly!

As much as I tried, the love for her wouldn't come. And I could see Hein struggling too. Funny, I didn't even remember giving birth to her although for some reason I knew she was premature. The only thing I was thankful for was having skipped the whole hospital saga...

I know many women say that a mother never thinks her own child is ugly... I beg to differ. What does this dream mean? Am I just plain superficial? Are all the negative comments I've made about other people's babies going to  be revisited on mine? I investigated a site www.makemebabies.com where you use your partner's photo and yours and the computer regenerates an image of what your baby is going to look like. With the best facing forward photos I could find, I uploaded and waited. Yes - I tried a few times.... You also have the choice of choosing Black, White, Indian or mixed race. I went for black and mixed race. Aarrrrgggghhh!!! Who are these girls?

I told Hein about the results and he still refuses to look at them - I guess we both have the same fears then...